Woah, I haven't updated this thing for ages! I think it goes back to the whole it's-homework-so-I-don't-want-to-do-it kind of thing.
But now that it's no longer homework, I might just have fun with it!
I don't even know what to write about! Hmmm....I guess I recently started my freshman year at college. That's kind of a milestone. Yes, I think I'll write about that.
College. This word has a lot of connotations, especially for high school seniors. All that I wanted by the end of my senior year was no more questions about college. This is no one's fault, it's just so overwhelming by the time you've gotten asked about college for the 20,349,820,394,820,394,802,348th time.
Seriously, the most common questions you'll get your senior year:
-What college are you going to go to?
-What will you major in?
-What type of job do you hope to get after college?
I think the thing that I hated the most about these questions was that after a while, all the questions seemed to really be asking was, "Plan your life right now--what will it be?".
I got so freaked out, just thinking that I had to be able to know exactly what I wanted to be when I "grew up" and how I wanted my life to go...it was getting so scary!
When I didn't get into my first choice college, I was crushed. Well, now I was REALLY not going to get my future to do what I wanted it to. And I was NOT happy about this. I was so sad and hurt and lost when I didn't get to go to the college I had been planning on for months and months.
And then, you know what happened? It's really quite a simple concept, I had just somehow overlooked it. It was kind of a dumb thing to overlook, but I did indeed overlook it.
It's called God's plan.
I know, I know, people always use God as a scapegoat for things not going their way or not getting into something or breaking up with someone. And I hate that. But that's not what I'm doing.
I am saying that I had been trying so hard, relying on myself and myself alone to figure out my future and plans. And why was I doing that? Because as a human being, I thought that I needed to. But I had sort of forgotten something important.
Jeremiah 29:11 says, "'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"
.....oh yeah, God.
Why is it that we can so easily overlook God and His plans for our lives? He is the only reason we are alive and the only reason we should live, and we get so busy planning our lives for ourselves, not looking back at Him once.
I think the answer is probably something along the lines of the fact that we are sinful humans, and we are prone to error, and we are selfish. We don't want to relinquish something as scary as our ENTIRE lives (past, present, and future) to God. We just want to give Him some stuff.
No no. That's not how it works.
I had been praying and praying and praying that I would get into my first choice. I had not been praying that God would show me what He wanted me to do; where He wanted me to go.
When I realized this one day in early May, after receiving the crushing blow of a rejection letter, I immediately felt God's "peace that passes all understanding". Duh. This isn't my plan. It's infinitely better. It's God's.
I know this isn't directly related to college life...but this is where I ended up. So that's that.
I encourage high school seniors to stop trying to figure out their lives and futures all on their own. Don't feel like you are. God has a perfect plan for your life, and as hard as it is to believe, it's a lot better than yours.
That's all I've got for now.
